Emptiness!

Damn, I don't know should I be sad or glad.

I've lost the most appreciated friend of all time just few days ago. Its such a sad thing for his life to just end like that. After all we've been through the ups and downs together. Sometime he does irritate me to the max but I don't put that in mind. Reason being is that without him, I wouldn't have been able to learn so much and of course get along with my other friends more and more.

Yes, I have just lost my dearest computer. My dearest beloved computer who's only 1 year old but now broke down on me. It's been the 4th day without him and life is so much different. Everyday whenever I'm at home I'll be in front of him but now I feel so empty without him. Its not that my life without a computer is a total disaster but without it there is no entertainment at all plus communication.

Oh please be ok and of course don't lose all my file in you. :P

By Bryan ^.^V

Bored

Oh My Goodness!

I’m seriously bored to the max! It’s been three day and I’m stuck at home dying to do something, anything as long as I’m able to do something other than staring into blank, staring at the computer with nothing to do, staring at my books reading for an hour and get bored of it, playing guitar with just that few songs all the time and having my fingers hurt after don’t know how many song later, switching on the tv with no programs to watch at all.

Holy Shit!
I’m so bloody lifeless now. Looking out the window seeing the gray skies covered by the dark clouds. Inch by inch raindrops falling from it. Cars moving around splashing waters as they passed by.

What the hell is there to do at home. Finally 90% recovered but with nothing to do. Someone donate me a Dance Studio! At least at that point I’d have something to do I hope. Kill me from this boredom. Having a person to talk to is more than sufficient but I just don’t know who even if I stare at my msn list. Seeing all the names there but afraid to disturb anyone of them. I think I have yet spoken more than 10 sentence a day since Monday. Mostly just typing or just nodding my head.

I’m so afraid that Fiffy may die soon if nothing changes. I’m so dead bored, I’m just gonna torture her soon. Take me out for the very least.

Hmm… This explains why I reflect on my life so much. Wow! What the hell! Nothing to be proud of!

By BKB =.=

Birthday Bash?

Bash, bash, bash! Let’s bash somebody!

Jus kidding…

Zombie bashing YEAH! Yesterday was really quite a day. Though misfortune befall on me on the day before, I strive to pass that cloud of misery and was able to go for dancing class and dance practice. I mean, come on, how could I ever miss a single class other than the cause of study responsibilities. I would be a dried salted fish if I were to miss one week of dancing.

Advice to others, never and I mean never be a DANCEAHOLIC or one may end up being a species like my kind. Everyday thinking of dancing whenever a music beat is there especially the song that you are practicing for. Well, I’m glad of being one as it just makes me happy with no mind towards stress or any bad feeling. The drive is just so strong that even if one is not well, one will just stand up and boogie down not caring the aftershock and also forget about the ones that are nagging one to stop.

Yesterday’s random outing was just interesting. Books? Food? Movie? Game? Crazy! Bet that book is having Vincent’s full attention to. Bet the quote in the movie is driving Wei Chiang mad in his mind. Bet Carl’s Junior fries is what Swee Pie would be craving for again. Bet all 4 of us are dying to have another get-together session for some games again. Hahaha! It’s just so UFB! XD

I don’t even know how to define what is a birthday bash. Well, nobody cares anyway. And I thought I may have another peaceful year of birthday after so long and somehow had a feeling that something may happened as I predicted last month and totally forgot about it. I remember planning that during this where the week of Sunday is actually after of before my birthday, I would actually purposely excuse myself from going to Sunday School. Thanks to my memory, I totally forgot about it.

Well, that’s not really the point. Somehow even if I had such a plan, I will still definitely be there regardless of anything that happens to me. Reason being? Of course there’s only that few which sums to one word with two syllables that is DANCING! Dancemania, Dance fever & Danceaholics! Who can stop us other than fatigue? Well, there is but who cares?

Speaking of which, today was kind of unexpected in which I was really surprised in WOW or WHOAH! Falling asleep in class was definitely not part of my plan but it just happened. Out of nowhere being called out for some issue. Thinking it was really something there but actually was part of a plan. But still it was something really mattered to what I need to do. Anyway, settling that and returning to class. Normally I would actually spy in the class before going in but I guess it was fate that I had to drop my paper on the ground, picking it up and forgetting the part where I wanted to spy into the class.

BOOM! A shockwave strike into my brain, a dark atmosphere with just a little bit of sunlight shinning with the rest being covered by the curtain. A deem glow coming from ten candles dancing around slowly. Gently hearing voice from the front and the back with the birthday song. Shocked by a surprised birthday party having me supposing to be petrified as I did know what expression was I supposed to give but only to smile thinking what’s my next move. Standing in front of a nicely baked cheesecake with a layer of writings that say:

“Happy Birthday! We So LOVE Our Sexy Banana King. XOXO. *Winks*”

Hmm… I wonder how long have I not have a one round cake as a birthday cake for birthday. Never mind that, out of nowhere asking me to give a speech is just so random since my mind is so busy thinking of what am I to do, I gave no mind on what’s going to happen next. Though my birthday has past but still having them to celebrate it and some wishing thinking that today is actually my birthday.

Well, anyway, dance practice today was AWESOME! Its so UFB! Just can’t wait till the day to arrive but something just stumbled into my mind whenever I think of that. After the event, what’s it going to be next? The end? There’s definitely no way that we are going to ask the young ones to come for dance when they are having their finals. More importantly, what’s going to happened to dance fever. I know that one day it will end but hopefully not too soon. It would be so devastating that its going to end.

In the end, I’m definitely going to say this but I just feel it not enough

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!
KALYANA MITRAS FOR LIFE!

By BKB ^.^V

One Step Closer to Adulthood

Ooo! Just can’t stop my hands from wanting to blog about this. Well, I actually hide my birth date from friends which I don’t know why I did so but there’s surely a reason for it. Maybe its because I want to know whether they’re true friends or not or maybe I just want to know those who knew of it remembers it as in remembers me or not.

I’m very glad that 10 of my friends actually remembered my birthday despite the fact that I don’t remember theirs cause I tend to forget everyone’s birthday other than my family. Though 3 of them were a bit early but at least they remembered which is what I feel glad of. 6 were somehow the bunch that caused me to get up from my bed but when I was lying down on my bed, few messages that I saw gave me a laugh. Though they disturbed my sleep but somehow I’m happy that they did.

Never forgetting my beloved grandma, She called me to wish me happy birthday which was something that was supposed to be done by me since our birthday differs by 2 days. I felt bad that I did not pick up the phone and gave her a ring. But I still have to say Happy Birthday Grandma!

Birthday to me is not much of a special day but I have to be glad to have this day as it was the day where I was brought to this world. Birthdays are meant to be celebrated with family and mainly with them. The reason is that without them, we would have not been given the chance to be brought to this world, to know everyone that we know now and definitely to be who we are today. For years they have sacrificed their time and blood to work hard and for what? For our sake to grow up in a well manner. It is ourselves to blame for not growing up in the right way because we were the ones who chose our own path to walk.

I feel very annoyed whenever I hear people cursing with words that are insulting either their own parents or other’s parents. Its so disrespectful knowing that them, they would have never gotten the chance to be in that position.

Parents at times are really a pain in the ass, why? Because they care for us, that’s why they nag, that’s why they ask questions & that’s why they want to know where we are going whenever we go out. They don’t call us or nag us or ask us any questions is because they trust us. They just want to achieve perfection in us, they want the best for us when they didn’t get the chance to have it when they were at our age. When our birthday comes, it is not them to say Happy Birthday to us but us to say Thank You to them for giving us a life to live.

Before closing, I just so have to highlight some phrases that are so nice to be remembered. "You're one step closer with the age starting with TWO!", "Thanks to your parents for this day or not we would not have you!", "May this Birthday enables you to pursue your passion & dreams!" & the best one "Welcome to the Senior Citizen Club!"

So I say Thank You to my mum and dad! And Thank You Xiuqi, Munn Sing, Yan Leng, Vanessa, Kelly, Sue San, Sin Nee, Michelle, Pei Wen & Wei Chiang for remembering me!

By BKB ^.^V

Dance Fever!

HooHooHoo~~~

Boring…

4 more days to weekend. Hmm… I’ve been craving for weekend quite often lately. Weekdays just seems so boring with nothing to do thanks to studying, exam & studying. A student’s life is always all about assignments, homework, exams & studies. Damn bloody boring for a person like me. Joy & fun where have they gone? All to the weekends of course!

Last Saturday was just awesome! Some great moment to exercise after so long (does dancing count as exercise?) My basketball skills are just the usual suckiness. Though I may suck but at least I’m still able to play and sweat like a mad cow afterwards.

Right after the games, was time to head home but not for long! Time to go out again right after washing up. I’d have to say Manhattan Fish Market can be really filling but… Look at the price you shall vomit back out whatever you just ate. Oh well, once in a while is all right!

In the night? Off to Deepavali open house of Geetha’s. Wah! The food was really spicy. Not knowing my level in spiciness, I just took every bit of each dish end up suffering the hotness but enjoying the excitingness of the hotness. XD After meal is time for pasar malam! Got separated with the other half and stuck with 3 girls but nothing wrong though instead I even help them in choosing sandals. XP

*Advice to girls: “If you plan to buy it but don’t plan to wear it, DON’T WASTE MONEY ON BUYING IT! If you already have a lot of shoes, DON’T WASTE MONEY TO BUY MORE!*

Journey home in the car was enjoy and so retro. All the old school song playing in the car, everyone singing around, skipping one song after another & everyone going crazy! Late night at home but not over yet as it was still young for me to experiment new program which I just got.

Sunday, words just can’t explain how I feel about Sunday. I can say its just so magnificent & full of joy. I’m so proud of myself for scoring for the Dhamma test of 73 1/2 over 100 for a first timer like me who just recently learned about the Dhamma. Not that I’m bragging about it but I just somehow have to express it out. I actually took the effort to study for it when I don’t even study for any of my real exams.

Seriously lately have been Dance Fever all the time. Just can’t stop thinking of dancing. Music with beats start and the switch will automatically switched on having my body to move. Time just passed on from half an hour to an hour but still no feeling of it and just keep on dancing. At this point, I so wish that I have a studio in my house. That way, I can dance till I drop dead on the floor with satisfaction.

Well, dancing and all the passion will always come with a price if you’re not being careful. Sore & muscle ache all over if you did not warm up before dancing. I always remind myself to remember to warm up before dancing but I just dance without remembering. The fire in the heart is so overwhelming with the drive of dancing juice. I’m turning into a
DANCEAHOLIC!!!

Earlier just now, was looking around my msn list then I saw this pm by Mike saying I am fat. Seeing it earlier I was feeling that maybe I just ignore it but then I suddenly had the urge to comment about because I had nothing to do. Well, when you’re bored you just had to do something right?

Come on! Give me my shoes, get on the table, get down on the floor, stand where you are! Let’s DANCE!!!

By BKB ^.^V

Amazing!!!

Sad, sad, sad…
True sadness…
Why?
HAVE TO SUFFER ANOTHER 4 DAYS TILL WEEKENDS COME AGAIN!!!

Seriously now I really think that I only have a life during the weekends during the day and sometimes the whole day. During the weekdays is totally NO LIFE!

Feel so dead during the weekdays spending most of my days of more than 8 hours just being in a building doing nothing but just studying and listening. People say college life is the time to enjoy but I say college life in ACCA is a big time to suffer deep down in hell. What to do? Graduate with the ACCA cert is a big bloody deal but the way to get it even worse than no meal for 10 days. XP

Well, its all in the mind. Just exaggerating, but actually at times its really fun though may be hell but its fun ONLY certain times.

Well, yesterday & Saturday was just amazing. Definitely Sunday is always the best. Life is never a satisfaction without these few things:

1. Music
2. Food
3. Home
4. Family
5. DANCING & SHAKING!!!

YES!!! Life will never be full without dancing to me now. Every time I hear a beat, its either I start to beat box or I start to move. I so have to sharpened my beat box skills or not it would just be great embarrassment. While performing half and just like that lost it and there it goes. Must improve! Nothing's gonna change my love for dancing & singing!

Oh ya, not to forget. YanLeng! You know what? "Nothing's gonna change our love for you..." Story bout that? Direct it back to Mike rather than me cause I forgotten bout some part of the story. XP

Just so wished that time would fly faster ending in Friday! There on will be WEEKEND!!!

By BKB ^.^V

Shall We Dance?

Well, of course it was another fun filled weekend. Definitely another new experience as well.

Yesterday, was really a wow! Let’s start this from the beginning. It was not really a great morning. Its never a great morning whenever you need to wake up early in the morning especially weekends just to go college or work. Mine was college.

Worse part still was that I had to head back to college just for an internal exam for 2 hours. Not really something that you would like to be having especially on a weekend when you are going to be having something interesting happening in the afternoon or evening. What can I do? Of course do everything according to the plan and finish things off as soon as possible so that it won’t ruin the rest of the day.

Arrived in college and was definitely a blur case but luckily was assisted in a while. Sad case? Well, I have to go for class on the next coming Saturday in the afternoon. Seriously OMG & WTH. But its all for the greater good. =P

As soon as the 2 hour had passed, I just eagerly dashed out of class and definitely head for dancing class. Yeah! Dancing, dancing, dancing! It was somehow just the beginning of the day and all wore out in the end of the dancing class thanks to Vanessa. No worry, I’m still surviving or else there wouldn’t be a blog post now.

Later on in the noon, went down to temple to help to set up for the Lantern Night Festival. Got down with nothing to do at first and started dancing again. This time, Jai Ho then Cha Cha again until finally we had things to work on.

The night was seriously awesome though tiring but awesome. I really don’t know how to blog about the moment, all that I knew was that it was really fun and cool. Excluding one definite part which is the suckiest of the whole night. Creeps the hell out of me. Those who know, you know how was it like during that moment. Those who don’t, well, keep it that way. Seriously felt like killing somebody at the moment. I’m so bloody glad that it only last that 2 or 3 hours. Or else I’m going to so bloody mad and may not appear in places anymore.

During the night, part of One Voice One Melody appeared once again but as we imagined how it would be and turned out… Maybe better not talk about it. I’m definitely glad that I still hold the title of Limbo Rock King! Wohoo! (without competing) Ending the night, yet again DANCING!

Today, Sunday school of course. It seems as if I haven’t been there for a very long time but only few weeks. Bloody miss all of them I’d say but not all turned up as usual. Slowly and lately non of them are going to turn up thanks to one examination which seems very important to them but somehow not really to me. Oh well.

Dancing was still the usual. The usual with with all the crazy things and laughing all around but wore out in the end yet again thanks to Vanessa. But all was well.

I’m losing my words. Can’t think of how to blog…

Before ending this post. I’ve got one last thing to say. Vanessa & Xinyi, both are you ARE NOT FAT! Shut up and eat up and don’t destroy your body and health. The best way to lose weight is to eat healthy and exercise. OFTEN.

By BKB ^.^V